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I love my job. I love the people I work with. I actually look forward to going to work everyday because of the challenges, flexiblity and creativity it brings.
But sometimes Im sad that I can't be a stay at home mom. I think it hurts the most when I hear about all the MOPS mamas talking about playdates and the time they get to spend with their little ones during the week. And then when I look at fun activities for Ava and I to do (for example, a mommy and me gymnastics class), the only times they have available are weekday mornings. Hello? Don't you realize their are working moms out there too?
Ava loves her babysitter and is always so excited in the morning to see her. But sometimes I wish I could explain to her why mommy and daddy have to be away during the week. She doesn't seem sad. And she's always so excited to play with us in the evening. And yes, I suppose the socializing she's getting at daycare is great, but what about socializing while mom is there? What about playdates that I can watch her squeal and laugh with other kids?
It tough and sometimes I feel like a bad mom. I know Im not and Matt's not a bad father either. How do people do it? How do people have a house, one working parent and money to pay for food and other necessities? Did I miss the memo?
I know Ava will grow up to be a beautiful and amazing daughter because of the people in her life and the support she gets 24/7. Sometimes I just wish I could be the 24/7 and not the 15/7.
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14 years ago
hi stephanie! just stumbled upon your blog.
ReplyDeletehere is something i have always said, "it's about quality not quantity." some moms who stay home have quantity time, but don't always give their kids quality. i know i have to be very intentional about it. it's easy to think "i'm with them" but i'm really not present, i'm side tracked by daily tasks. some moms who work are more intentional about the quality of time they give their kiddos. be intentional to find the balance that works for you for this season of parenting. and whether working or not be present.
your daughter is darling.
Oh- you could not have described this struggle better, Steph. It doesn't get easier. But you are providing for a stable future for Ava. If you love your job- just remember that a happy mama is a better mama!
ReplyDelete1. I love what Denise said about quality vs quantity.
ReplyDelete2. As dumb as it sounds, I feel the same way about my dog sometimes.
3. You are kicking ass in the parenting department. Dude, if I had a kid right now, I'd probably have to put her to work too just to cover all the bills.
4. You're awesome.